phew .. i made it !

ok i survived. and it wasnt as bad as what i thot. i guess i'm really getting old either that or the ppl around me are getting married at a much younger age.

i'm just glad i had all the support that i could possibily have...

the war in my mind

well , sometimes it is just seems that i worry too much , i think too much or i'm too concerned about the well being of the ppl around me. good grief .. got to let go . the session today went along just fine. thank gdness for dad heading the show and for dd being extra careful and understanding . things lighten up towards the end with the sharing of stories and experiences. pheww.. see i worry too much ..

finally we can make a decision .. moving on

desk.. empty

the whole decision making process has certainly taken my mind off my actual daily grinding. should have taken a picture of my desk. now it is empty. then again the memories will stay and i guess it serves a better purpose..

moving on ...

i'm not late

it is good sometimes to just take a step back from the rat race and calm down. i',m glad to read abt a fren's experience through her blog. calming down and acting decisively is going to help.

i just hope to be able to put a deposit on our choice wedding venue by this week. i hope

The day

ok no pictures. this is no good.. hopefully i can do something about it this weekend. i'm really thankful to be home safe and sound.

tomorrow is one impt day.. it's a day where everyone meets. i cant imagine what would happen. planning for a wedding can actually be a full time job. geez but i certainly feel that i need to get on with life. there is just so much more to do . call me a non traditionalist. it''s really not that i'm disrespectful but i'm really confused by the practices of yester years ( already i think referring to it as 'yester years' is disrespectful ) .. i'm not about to start a protest here but i'm just really hoping and praying that all with be fine after 'the day'. that everyone will just lay their cards and be happy about the final decision. And that there is no need to double guess one another's thoughts. dun like to be in the middle of this.

fairy tale vs reality

reality bites .. so much truth in that phrase. i'm just thankful that dd is still holding it all together despite everything that is happening. i feel that i could have done better. threaded more carefully on the 'tofu' . help ! what an experience this is ( it is still happening , explains the present tense used)

dream vs ability

can we afford? is always the question. once in a lifetime ! my heart screams to me but this message usually dun last for more than 3 seconds before my mind screams to me .. budget.
i've been dreaming and crossing my fingers everyday since the searching and decision marking process started. i'm hoping for the best.

reality vs fantasy

this part of my entry certainly seems quite out of point but today's interaction with close frens made me realised one thing.. escapisim. the older we grow, the more often we will slip into this mode... y not, as least it allows us to think that we are 'free' .. for a gd half hour or less?

this is one of the moments where i'm thankful that we cannot stop time ..

short break

we managed to squeeze in a short break despite all the stuff we got to do and the crazy work schedule. I'm praying that all will be fine and that we will have a safe journey there and back. think mum is worried sick.

hopefully i will be able to upload some pics when i return. did part one of my shift today. looking forward to the new beginning

as the journey continues...

ok, i havent been penning my thoughts all too often. I've so much to write abt but somehow i think deep within me i'm still battling with myself on the purpose of my blog. well enough said. decided to write as i wish. i'm confusing myself.

the past week has been an interesting one. luckily no one knd of 'blew up'. well i guess it is seriously not easy to prepare for a wedding. as much as i also say.. i'm ok.. no worries, anything is fine. it just hits you somehow when you realised that it is Your wedding. Are you going to plan for one of the most important event in your life with an ' anything goes' attitude? that's something that i have been asking myself. was just reading another frens blog and i chance upon her thoughts about this whole experience... 'you only get married once' geez .. need i say more about how brides -to -be feel.

it's just one day .. but it is one special day : )

crazy hours

think i really got to do something about my crazy sleeping hours. this really doesnt help when everyone else starts 'operating' at 9am. I've just turned my clock upside down. maybe i should live in the states . nite ( got to do something about uploading my pics ) currently in conflict with self about the purpose of my blog ...

the strangest things i think about at 3.30am ... sleep

excel spreadsheet king

dd is now officially known as the excel spreadsheet king! He is a rare talent, i just cant believe the amount of work he has done to it easier for us to make a choice. talking about choices.. it has been an interesting 2nd week. : )

an exciting event

i must thank dd for saying this out loud to me today . "It is an exciting event, we must enjoy it !" wat a timely reminder ..

just when there are 1001 things to do . shall not ramble on and on abt the nitty gritties.

enjoy,relax